趁着周末，去了武夷山，躲避北京的寒意，体验南方的冬日；

 

坐上竹排，顺流而下，九曲十八湾的美景尽收眼前，耳畔依稀听到朱熹对其弟子的谆谆教诲；

 

潺潺的溪水，湿润的空气，恍惚间春回大地，只记得千里之外的北京大雪纷飞；

 

吃山珍，品乌龙，好不逍遥...

 

PS:

 

回北京有一funny anecdote,　下了飞机要等车来接，由于是下午two hours flight，I felt utterly exhausted, 跑到机场T1 的Starbucks 要了杯Mocca to go, 付了钱，拿了receipt, 年轻的男cashier突然问到“你是来接机的吧”，sigh, my mind went totally blank, 过了两秒种，我无奈的说：＂恩，是啊＂．　看来我真的是looks like/ sounds like a native of Beijing.

 

最近，周围的朋友有很多都结婚了，这其中也包括花儿，还有从事媒体工作的苹果兄；

 

从来都把自己还当成是孩子，这两年却越发觉得自己变老了，每个年龄都有属于自己的美，过了那些年少纯真的日子，现在面对的是更加现实的生活．

长大其实也挺好，可以成熟冷静的掌控自己的生活。

 

看着周围的朋友找到了自己的幸福，我也觉得很幸福，其实幸福也是可以传染的。

 

每个女孩都梦想着自己的wedding ceremony，鲜花，美酒，亲朋好友的祝福，还有代表彼此comittment 的wedding ring

 

你找到属于你的幸福戒指了吗？

 

 

忽然之间,冬天就来了

充满薄雾的空气中，依稀可以嗅到寒冷，

厚厚的大衣让我们变得疏远，心情也随着气温 drops to the lowest point．

 

一年之中，最不喜欢冬天，因为穿的厚厚，还是手脚冰凉，

只有火锅的热气，能让我苍白的脸色变得红润，

身体在这个时候，也大不如前，

北京的冬天，又是格外的漫长，

最近因为身体的原因，变得比较negative

感觉眼前的一切都是灰色的，

不知道什么时候能在看见阳

Cast some light all over me.

 

I hope everything will be alright shortly, the coast is clear, nothing to fear.

Just hang in there, no more worries.

 

PS:

 

Thank you so much, my dear pals, for  your warm-hearted wishes and tender-loving care. 

As to the past wintertime in BJ, looking back the entire memory of my childhood and adulthood, so much left to be expected.

 

雪后的北京，皑皑白雪下的红墙，肃穆而妖娆，

中学时经常去的南北河沿、景山公园，记录着青春的痕迹，

糖葫芦、糖炒栗子一直伴随着我们走过漫长冬季的snacks

 

想想虽然室外寒冷，因为有heating不再那么难捱

生在北京的我们，要不那些居住在南方的人幸福多了

 

 

 

 

 

 

这些日子，很想念在英国的日子，那些曾经一起欢笑的朋友，还有那间承载我所有dream的my little warm room.

 

我那家room,曾是很多来过的朋友羡慕的large room, 有两大扇通透的英式窗，  每天清早当我打开窗帘，就会感受到新的一天的美好，backyard, blue  sky, fresh air...

 

接连梦到在newcastle 的日子，Leazes Terrace, St James Park, Armstrong building, Library, The Fenwick, 还有那个大大的coffee lounge.

 

还有那些dear friends, 一起在听到fire alarm drill　的时候狼狈的样子，一起去shopping 的畅快，一起聊天的真挚和温暖，那时候的我们是那样的单纯，他乡遇故知的欣慰，还有在我即将离开的那天，你陪我去river of tyne 边漫步。 我们曾经互诉衷肠，娓娓讲述自己的感情经历，也曾经相互扶持get through the tough time..

 

现在的大家都已经回国settle down, contact也不象以前那样平常，只是大家都会不约而同的想起那段日子, the good old days.

 What is happiness all about?

Happiness is right out there, and we, each and every one of us is on our way to pursue it.

Happiness is something that we can only pursue, and maybe actually we can never have it, no matter what.

 

 I happen to know God is always fair enough, he could open a wide door for you and shut down a window of opportunity in return. Whatever, I can say, I feel happier now, more than ever, not in specific fashion, but in a fit state.

 

I used to keep an eye on the dark side, and think too much before calling the shots. That could be right, but hard to tell...

 

Now I intend to light myself up by shifting my phelosophy of  living . Life is tough, if you see it as your top prority mission, but life could be easy, if you perceive it as a long distance journey. As a journey, you might bump into some soulmates to go along with you and keep you company, and you might even be hit by bid surprises you never expect, and end up with enchanting and rewarding outcome...

 

 

这些天过的很辛苦，发现自己也终于学会伪装自己的情绪；

明明心情down到低点，却还要尽力微笑；

已经习惯了这种落寞的感受，那种即便是与最亲密的人也无法感知理解的落寞；

昨夜的电话长谈，让我明白自己在别人眼里的理智，独立，敏感，多虑，自制力又强，总之是缺少激情，

A型血的我，是会考虑和担忧很多问题，所以总会带有一丝的忧郁，淡淡的，挥之不去，我也希望自己是那种充满激情可以依靠男人的女人，

But, I cannot, 狮子座的我不愿轻易低下高傲地头，于是，就这样，彷徨着...

 

自己的微不足道，对于周围的人也许不会有太大的影响，

可还是觉得有些feel sad, 人与人的交往，有很多种形式，对于我，还是以诚相待的，

不知那些曾经和我crossed the road的朋友，是否还会记得我，也许没有时间太多联系，But I'm quite honest with each of you.

 Remember me, your Jessie Babe, as much as you can, my fellows.

Well, nothing to start up with....

 

Summer is coming with boiling heat and blaring sun, but I feel somewhat sit-back and upbeat....

 

有时候会后知后觉，看了《新上海滩》的最后6 episodes, 才喜欢上黄晓明扮演的许文强...；只看了红楼梦中人最后一场，才觉得其实那个上海赛区的徐垚就是那个活脱脱的痴情宝玉，只是有了那个古典韵味的李旭丹，这个稍具现代特点的宝哥哥便被待定了，what a shame!

 

瞄瞄同学又去收房了，不知道什么时候可以tie the knot;身边的同事get sick,天天打吊瓶，还要坚持上班，that's the spirit;

认识了苹果醒目，每天可以随便chitchat online,还有那个被他形容成琼瑶女主角中走出来的gf.

 

只是不知道自己的destiny会是怎样，working all the way. By far, I live up to my faith all the time. But all of the sudden, I felt quite uncertain of myself, my choice and my future. Am I wrong, what kinda life it would be if I go with the flow with mighty power.

 

Sort of nonsense, but it is the heck what comes to my mind.

 

 

 

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Tony Blair has made a televised annoucement about his departure from the post as prime minister, which lasted a decade with  two terms. He also sketched out his timetable of his resignation and handover to his successor, Gordon Brown, current finance minister.

 

政治上的事情，实在说不清楚，只是对于Tony Blair有些不舍。这个英国历史上最年轻的prime minister,如今也要交出政权。尽管英国民众对他采取的外交，以及和美国对Iraq问题上的态度颇有微词，但也不能否认他对与北爱问题以及EU 一体化问题的contribution。正如英国媒体最近讨论的what will be Blair's lasting legacy after handover to Gordon Brown.

 

An era will come to a close, while UK's neigbouring country, France,  has saluted its new president, Nicolas Sarkozy.

People come and go, anyway, pay tribute to Tony Blair, the UK's youngest ever prime minister, an oxford graduate.

 

 Long holiday finally ended. Oops, 7 days come and go. Shopping in Beijing, sightseeing in Xiamen, is all about my holiday.

 

Everywhere in China is packed with people, seemingly people is happy to engage in go outing, shopping during the 7-day holiday.

 

I flew all the way to Xiamen, an amazing island close to Taiwan, my first tour in Fujian Province and Minnan area. There, the first time in my life, I felt so close to Taiwan,just miles away on the high sea, and felt so impressed about that part of history.

 

GulangYu, a sub-island attached to Xiamen,is somehow like a fairyland. No vehicle is permitted on the island, a sheer natural place to live in with tasty fruits.

 

well, Zara, again, seems like I'm more attached to urban life, though it's jampacked, chaotic and stressed, I'm getting used to it, just because it's more handy, kinda a way of shortcut lifestyle. Everything is around and easy to get, a wealth of information/opportunities, a well-established circle of networking, delicacy, night life...  

昨天把《为爱结婚》的两集看完了，越发觉得李亚鹏是个挺不错的男人，依稀记得他在里面的一句line:真正的爱情不怕生死相隔，而是生活。

 

生活的无情，会慢慢离析两颗相爱的心。爱情像是一种Luxury,看似可有可无，without love，生活一样继续，只是颜色只有黑白，with love,生活也许是colorful,但同时也意味为为保护这份爱，要付出更多的爱。爱情像是jewelery,每个女孩子都喜欢，每个女孩子都像要最漂亮的一个，但是没人会知道you have to pay for it to gain the most glittering one.

 

Love is just like the crystal, with lucent and glittering looking but vulnerable heart.

Love is all about taking and giving, giving warmth and care to your spouse,taking strength from your partner.

Love is hard to describe by words, is not just the mysterious chemistry, but the broad shoulders to burden more responsibility, but, faced up to love, I'm a coward, I always get panic, dodge the responsibility and relunctant to change my style. I'm no philosopher, I'm no critical thinker, probably I'm quite emotional and sensitive, who knows, I'm just like that...

喜欢这样的名字，逝去的美好的事物，更容易牵动我们的神经...

就像逝去的日子，我们觉得怀念...

逝去的青春，我们觉得遗憾...

那些逝去的，会在每个人心底的某个角落独自静静的绽放，像是带着幽香的百合，又或是清逸的兰花，开的那样的美，又是那样的keep low profile...

我们身边的一切终将逝去，那时的你我又会在什么地方，是在彼此的心间，还是想那些逝去的花，停留在那绽放的季节.....

 

一直在blog上宣泄自己的小情绪,postive or negative.

也会去好友的space上leave my comment from time to time,有时候他们的mood也会influence me,尤其是那些充满幸福温暖的感受...

 

爱情是什么？幸福又是什么？每个人都有不同的definition, 于我爱情就是那即便远隔千山也蕴含于彼此心间的那份牵挂，幸福就是两个人彼此相携...

 

好友又有了新的GG,字里行间透露着热恋的幸福，每段感情的开始都是美好的，结果却不得而知。即便如此，爱情还是需要有种飞蛾扑火的精神，因为不敢去尝试就永远不会知道爱情的美好，即便是最后遍体鳞伤，痛彻心肺，至少可以刻骨，可以铭心.....

 

Thank you all for your concern and warm-hearted words.

 

Your kind wording sees me through a tough time, and reminds me of your stance on my side.

 

I just wanna express my gratitude, as everything by far is going on the right track, and my life has returned to normal.

 

I'm no more the easy target, and will not waive the right to defend myself.

 

You, my divine buddies, always be there with your tender loving hearts, giving your helping hands to raise me up. I really appreciate it.

 

It's not an acceptance speech, with the phrase " thank you, thank you,thank you", it's from the bottom of my heart....

寂寞是一种自由,寂寞也是一种情绪,寂寞是你我生活的一部分...

 

生活中有太多变故,让人措手不及,我宁愿相信那是上天的安排,是在考验我的适应能力. However, 太多的不确定也是一种必然.

 

"拥抱着怎么还寂寞,

面对你爱我的动作
到不了我的心中
拥抱我
你难道不寂寞
我们之间除了熟悉
还缺了些什么
当阳光都暗了"

 

人与人之间的relationship就是这样的complex, 面对面的距离,心与心的相隔, 缘分来的时候悄然无声,走的时候也不留下任何痕迹....

 

 

 

 

这周六又从上海飞回来，这是今年第二次去上海。不想再去比较北京上海，毕竟各有千秋。

 

只是想说到上海的时候赶上了好天气，春光明媚，走在南京西路上，让我开始有一点点喜欢上海，但是那里糟糕的交通实在让我upset.

 

周六回到北京，依然赶上好天气，去润枫水尚看了房子，去hairdresser那里 做了perm, 周日去了世贸天阶的Zara shopping, 去建外SOHO have a lunch, and drink Mocca at Starbucks, 悠闲的周日下午...

 

最近很想静下心来看些书，去上海前看了《Babel》电影，很是喜欢。是时候让自己沉淀和提高，每日周边的浮华，不要将自己淹没。

 

Hi, strangers. I'm back!